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2022 - Chapter Four

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MMXXII Written & Published By Lydia Rees Talofa my loves! Welcome to the 4th and final chapter of this whole shabang! It has been a ride but once again I sacrifice the sliver of privacy I had, in order to showcase love and its honest struggles. I have been thinking through and through as to whether I want to put this out to the world. Whether they deserve to have this knowledge of me and my loved ones. There was a period of time where I wanted to scrap this entire blog, stay private, but this is me.  I do these things because I love to write. Some of you like to sleep with married men, I like to overshare my life stories. It's as raw as it gets. I have had people reach out to me about things they have enjoyed about my blogs, how they can relate, similar struggles and hardships etc, and it has allowed me to comfort, share, and more importantly, it has initiated conversations between myself and another who I have never spoken to otherwise. There is nothing in my pieces that I wou

2022 - Two & Three

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2022 MMXXII Written & Published By Lydia Rees ___________________________________________________________________________________ Chapter 2: To Hear, See & Feel This year I have strived to be more attentive to the emotional side of me. With each disagreement, each heart throb, each moment of joy, each tear shed, I took the time to dwell in the emotions that typically, I would try & skip over. I am the type of person that, although I may not show it, I feel everything deeply. Both joy & sadness. So I have listened to my body & my mind each time I experienced one of these things.  The absence of presence within myself is what scared me the most. Being able to overanalyse everyone else around me but then drawing blanks when it came to myself. I have learnt new things every day about my ability to handle pain, how tough the heart is that beats inside me. In a fast paced world, it’s easy to try & move on to the next best instead of taking the time to feel the world a

2022 - Chapter One

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MMXXII Written & Published By Lydia Rees __________________________________________________________________________________ Talofa Lava my loves!  Welcome to Lydia's annual recap on life and honestly, a sad excuse to rant. I appreciate you being here!  Since this is one of my safe spaces, I wanted to be open up being completely transparent. Most years its a breeze to get through these blogs. But this year I really struggled to find the motivation. Normally I would be beaming with ideas and already finished by mid-october but not this time. You see, my notes are flooded with small captures of emotion through the year, things that I wanted to include in this blog but it drained me to even think about putting it all together. Part of me felt like others weren’t deserving of such a vulnerable side to me, but I am reminded of why I write these. To hold myself accountable and a way to measure my growth. If it happens to motivate, inspire or encourage anyone else, I am grateful! As al

2021

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2021 & it’s prayers MMXXI Written and Published: Lydia Rees __________________________________________________________________________ Another year is slowly coming to an end. Mariah Carey & Michael Bublé terrorise the radio, Christmas trees on display in every shopping centre, thousands of flashing lights hanging at every second house... que Lydia’s long awaited end of year blog.  Thank you for joining me for the last blog post of 2021; please note that this one is quite long so feel free to read by chapter! As always my lovelies, grab a cuppa, maybe a snack, & I hope you enjoy the read !  —    2021 , the year that God decided to take me to the next level, challenged me emotionally, broke me down just to rebuild me up again. The year that my world continued to crumble behind closed doors, forcing me to be stronger than ever in the public eye. There were times this year where I was Buridan’s donkey, pacing between opportunities & decisions that seemed to weigh just as i

3 Years

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3 Years - Mutherhood Written & Published by Lydia Rees Talofa to my 3-man audience, and welcome back to my channel. Awolla fia vlogger stamaloaaaa. I hope you have been well during these trying times. Again, I sacrifice my privacy by laying down a piece of my heart, in hopes that it shows you a different perspective. It seem that associating myself with motherhood is too strange for some, so we can just call it Mutherhood. or muther-fuc... just kidding As always hunnies, sit back, relax, grab a bevvy and read with me... _____________________________________________________________ In 2016, at the ripe age of 18, do you know what my doctor told me. " Lydia the reality is, you're more than likely never going carry or give birth to your own children. Your ovaries are abnormal and you have such a hormonal imbalance that implantation becomes too difficult ". My dumbfounded "huh?" was answered with a " basically its going to be very very difficult for you to